Yesterday I spent the evening in the library with my 2 little girls, waiting for an available book to write a report that is due today. Most of the time was spent waiting for any book to be returned to the reserve desk. When I was able to finally obtain one, I was already frustrated and eager to be back home. The single book I had reviewed contained very little material to work with, and it was not within the timeline that I was supposed to be working with. Of course, not willing to spend the entire evening at the campus library waiting for more books to become available, and needing to return home to prepare a meal before the kiddo's bedtime, I took what I had and decided to make it work somehow. Normally, I might be able to abstractly argue some relevance, seeing as how this book was selected by the instructor herself, but due to not having the required textbook of the class itself, I am left with a daunting predicament. I must somehow find some relevance to the course material, without having access to the course material itself. Now if I were an average student, living on campus with typical roommates and time enough to spend alone working on my assignments, I would simply spend the entire evening at the library studying several different selected books, and also check out the required text so that I could read the course cannon to determine an argument for some better suited material. I am not an average student, I live 20 minutes drive from campus, my roommates are 3 and 6 years old, and I am never alone unless I can find suitable babysitters. That is difficult to do when you are unemployed, penniless, out of gas, and have no phone. Ill be lucky if I can make it to campus to turn in any paper at all today, and I certainly wont be expecting a passing mark on it. I truly enjoy being in school, and I actually like doing the work, but right now, there are a few barriers for me to overcome this semester, and I am uncertain I will be able to do so.

It looks like i'll be dropping my drawing class this semester. Sadly, it is due to a long delay in my pell grant funds. Not enough gas to get to class, no phone to call for help, no job to pay the rent. I am still hopeful of my other 2 classes this semester though, and the change in the schedule will keep me from sprinting from one place to the other. Still, I am a little disapointed I wont be able to keep it. Truth be told, I am still very thankful for being able to go to school at all again. It has been a blessing to get back into my artwork again with a positive focus. Having Hannah and Maizy here with me has been another great blessing that has given me many challenges to face over the last year. Hannah has been excited to develop her reading skills this year, and so far she is doing great. Maizy on the other hand, has been stuck at home with the grumpy dad, needles to say we have bumped heads a time or two on who is really in charge. Both of the girls are being really helpful to me lately, by vaccuming their room, or handing me clothes to fold. I am fortunate at the moment to have access to an internet signal, especially now that my phone has been cut off. I am in an intertidal pool at the moment and must make due with what is given me for now while I await the Lords hand to guide me to where he has prepared for me. Fortunate am I that my Father above has given me the trials to my patience to prepare me for these times.

sunday night

The Dallas Cowboys lost in the new stadium to the New York Giants at 31-33. In a stadium opener, Romo was a little underwhelming with 3 interceptions. Can't blame them all on him, but still a very weak effort to keep the ball in your control. The defense played somewhat solid early, but for being left out to dry by the poor ball control of the offense, they could not muster the strength to stop the Giants offense from marching down field for a game winning field goal. No surprises really when you consider that Romo has a knack for coughing up the ball in close games all last season, and clutch mishaps in playoff games for a couple seasons now. The Giants did an excellent job of converting turnovers which accounted for 17 of the teams points. Those silly throwaways just don't cut it, especially against a division rival at home. In the end, I don't think anyone was totally surprised by the end result, but it was very disapointing anyway. Maybe we can get them back in a few weeks in New York for another sunday night spotlight? Hmmmmmm......